April 4, 2012 § Leave a comment
It’s easy to waste your life on a computer, especially when you’re unemployed and pregnant and lost. How am I going to raise a child when I’m this lost and this far away from where I want to be, from where I thought I’d be? How do I muster up the self confidence to be a good role model when I feel like the biggest loser to walk the planet? How did I get here and how do I move forward from here? How do I stop the anxiety and racing mind about being stuck with a child? How do I see with a different perspective from what I’m perpetually wallowing in? Scared, unsure, afraid I’ll never be anything that I am or think I am. Letting people tell me I have to let go of my dreams and live theirs. Makes me want to go puke. Right now. Urp.
P.S. I haven’t been writing on any of the blogs I start because I’m afraid to be honest, but without being honest, I don’t write.