Too many cupcakes!
April 23, 2012 § Leave a comment
I think I need to write instead of talking to another human being. I’m severely grumpy today. Most likely due to all of the dairy cheating and poor eating I’ve done lately along with lack of EXERCISE.
I really have zero friends and I’ve done this to myself. By surrounding myself with people who only care about themselves. (I realize I sound pretty self-involved right now, which I am I guess.) I’m not interested in any of my friends. None lift me up, none make me a better person, I have no good conversations with most of them and absolutely nothing in common. I really liked Annie, but due to the awkwardness and my *hatred towards NWP now, I’m just not sure how to move forward with that one. Plus, I’ve owed her a phone call for months now.
Part of me feels like because I’m pregnant that my life is over. I have to give up on my dreams, which maybe I should have given up YEARS ago. I mean, isn’t that what Jeremy’s been trying to get me to do all these years. Give up? Feels like it.
I’m sure I’ll snap out of this once I eat right again, work out and have more energy again. The first tri I guess has taken a bit of a toll hormonally. Supposed to be getting better now. It’s not like you really notice it, you just feel like a loser, failure, lazy-ass and wonder why the hell you can’t or don’t get all the things done you used to get done or used to want to do.
I hope I like this baby. I’m a different breed of woman. I didn’t grow up pining for the opportunity to be a mother. I knew I wanted a family someday, but that’s as far as I got. I never imagined babies or children or anything that will come with this new major life change. What I spent most of my time imagining was traveling and seeing the world and experiencing different cultures. Ultimately, being creative and content in a far away land.
I need to get my head out of my ass and try to accomplish something. Maybe at least brush my teeth for the day, it is after all 4:19pm.
*Hatred is a strong word. I mainly mean strong irritation and dislike as well as extreme disappointment.
Gluten-free Chocolate Cupcakes (recipe by me)
1 c. white rice flour
½ c. potato starch or corn starch (I used potato starch because I was out of corn starch)
¼ c. sweet rice flour
½ c. unsweetened dark cocoa powder (I used Hersheys)
½ c. unsweetened regular cocoa powder (again, Hersheys)
1 ½ t. baking powder
1 ½ t. baking soda
2 c. sugar (I used ~ 2 c. white sugar with a little turbinado because I didn’t quite have 2 c. of white sugar in the house)
1 t. salt
1 t. xanthan gum
Whisk dry ingredients together, set aside.
2 large eggs
1 c. vanilla almond milk (the 90 calorie almond milk, therefore, sweetened)
½ c. vegetable oil
2 t. vanilla extract
Combine above wet ingredients with a fork, then add and mush/stir/combine bananas using a hand mixer:
4 overripe bananas (key ingredient which adds MAJOR moisture)
Next, on hand please have 1 cup of very hot water.
Slowly, using the mixer, blend in the dry ingredients and gradually the hot water until both are gone and incorporated.
Bake 350˚ for 18-30 minutes depending on your oven. My cupcakes took approx. 28 minutes. Makes 30 very moist cupcakes. Cool before frosting.
I frosted mine with chocolate buttercream which can be made dairy free, but we only had butter in the house.
My chocolate buttercream recipe:
1 stick of butter or butter alternative (room temperature or 10-15 seconds in the microwave to soften)
1 c. powdered sugar
¼ c. unsweetened cocoa powder (would have used dark, but was out, so used regular)
2-3 T. almond milk
A bit of vanilla extract to your liking
A bit of almond extract, start with a very small amount, a little goes a long way.
Add all ingredients to a bowl and mix with a hand mixer until smooth and creamy. Begin with only 2 T. of almond milk, add the 3rd if necessary to thin it out.
Frost your cupcakes and ENJOY! Try not to eat them all in one sitting, share with family, friends and neighbors or co-workers if you have a job.